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the girl next door  Nadt Gyea. In denial of turnin 19 this year. H.nitec in Event Mgt.(Bishan). Rembuction/D.R.S Crew. Im full of Angst. Im single.Kening Up2.Haha. Ur mum warned u about me. |
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Told chu im going come back pretty soon.haha.
Monday, May 31, 2010
This is sooo SEXAYE...
ON SECOND THOUGHTS,IMMA PASS.WADAFARK
Dammit lahh..soo pretty siak.
Cb ah kau.
Aku pun tak gitu lawa.
Pukimaks.
Sheesh.
*get it tonight*
Labels: Trans.Trans.Lawa bodoh kau.
Sayang,pegi Melaka ke buat Melaka?.
WALAUWEIII...I MISPLACED MY THUBDRIVE.
Im not controlling your space.Really.
But i worry of your safety.
You know it was raining right.
And i just wanna know if ure safe or not.
Maybe u dont have AutoRoam like i do.
But im just scared,something might happen.
And yes,Home sucks badly right now.
Mum is having Extreme PMS.
Dad is nagging like no ones business.
And i really need a shoulder to lean on.
Someone to talk to.
Brother is going out soon.
And ill be the only victim of their naggings.
Oh gosh.
Torment me with something else please.
I could live with that.
I dont wanna be accused wrongly.
Stop blaming me for my siblings mistake.
Im the youngest.HELLOOOO,shouldnt i be the one prone to doing more mistakes?
Come back home quick from Melaka please.
I miss you.
Telinga i berdarah dengar dorg beleter.
Great singapore sale pun tk gini kecoh.
<3<3<3
And I swear im like a pig now.
Eating almost anything i bought at NTUC.
I bought Cheezel(Large),Chipsmore,2 choc bar,1 laksa instant noodle,3 packets of twisties(Large Size) and a bottle of peanut butter.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
Nie baru perangai babi buntal.
And ive been chewing non stop.
Deprive maybe?.
Haha.
Someone,save me before i finish everything please.
Berightback.
Busy chewing away..
Sayang,I rindu you.
Labels: Will you?
And i lost more than i had ever won.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
And my jaw literally dropped.
I adjust my body position.
Sat nearer to the laptop.
And wonder.
For a moment,i was..a bitch.
And yes,im back to my normal self.
Its okay.
Its long gone.=)
I wanna share something then,
since im talkin about this topic.
Then lets talk about it once and for all.
Last 5 years,i did met someone,
I was at my breaking down point,
So when you tried to do something,to make me like you.
I didnt felt a thing.
Then i told myself,to give you a chance.
So i did,it went on for 3 months.
I knew something was wrong but i just kept mum.
bcos i trust him to tell me everything.
Then the first incident was when i had a photo of you,
my fren saw it,
they asked me abt you,
i paused.
Dumbfounded.
Still,u refused to tell.Fine.
Then this incident,
i put ur pic at my profile,
and ive seen this coming tho.
My cousin knew you,
Thats because your girlfren was her bestfriend.
Read this again,
i repeat.
YOUR CURRENT GIRLFRIEND.
what was i again?
She was even pregnant.
Then i let you go,
For the better or the worst.
I had difficulty moving on.
because you keep appearing in my life every now and then.
And i fell for you again.
And yes,you got urself another girlfriend again.
And you told me to hang on because you and her couldnt last long.
That you love me more than her.
And that i mean more to you.
That make me wait long.quite long.
5years was fcuking long.
Then you didnt do anything,
i moved on but i told you that no matter what,
i am still here.
See the Love i had for you back then?.
So pure.
Stupid hah.
Then i got a bf.
Then you came back.
I should have known.
I let you wait,for 2 months only,
yet you were impatient.
I guess so.
Thanks.
You left again.
With this chick.
Now,(back then)
i got to know of a guy.
U disagreed.
I effed cared.
Cos u still had her.
i want my share of happiness.
i want someone to love to.
someone whom i can love endlessly without worrying that ur other girlfren will find out.
Then i fell hard for him,
Way too hard.
Seeing that,
i told you off,
that 5 years of your so called love for me ended just like that.
Because of that one sentence i told you.
I love HIM too much to be with someone whom wasted my teen life.
You covered up pretty bad.
Thats okay.
Like i said,ive seen it all coming.
And believe me,
Till this date,
im still with him.
Its not that long,
but it was sure worth it.
Your 5years is NOTHING compared to this.
With that,
I hope ure happy with your current life.
Current girlfren(s).
I never regretted leaving you.
I only wanna grow old with Rafi <3.
IN YOUR FACE SUCKER.
(NOW INSERT SMILEYFACE)
Fark you bugger.
Because of you,
love was just a word back then.
And fuck love,i turning into a nun.
HAHAHAHAHA.
*You just take it away.*
Labels: Y=you suck.
But im confused lah.how?
Saturday, May 29, 2010
(Argh.)
Sometimes without you realising it,
U tend to contradict things.
And i fcuking hate it when that happens.
Sometimes you can be that Sweetlove im always aww-ing for.
The the next moment,You will say things indirectly and making things hard.
This is not what you u call problems in Love.
This is what you can avoid when in a relationship.
And yes,honesty do helps in a relationship.
And it hurts alot too.
What you say,contradicts.
What ill be doing?.Sitting down and cant help but to think of all this.
And i dont think youre aware of all this.
It sucks.
And i hate the fact that i love you so much,
And my heart is doing too much talking,but my mind isnt.
But can you do me this favour?.
Please.
Get over it.Ok.
The hurt is turning into angst.
And you know what,
what you say,its true.
Its unfair for me.
ARGHILOVEYOUSOMUCHIHATEMYSELFFORLOVINGYOU
* Dont get fresh with me Boy *
Labels: I miss you.And.I love You.
Thank you Baby.
Sayang,Thanks for the Ruffles.
=)
And i have a weakness for people who buys me stuff without me telling them to.
in another words,havin the iniative.
Especially my loved ones.
And its soo sweet that i think if i were to get it while walking,
i would trip and melt instantaneously.
I love you.
And im already eating it now.
Sedaaaaappppp!.
Brb okays....
Wanna eat..Hahaha.
Labels: I wanna love you likei never did.Always.
Im secretly dating Ryan Sheckler an T.i..HAHA.
Hahahahaha.(Drooling).
Sorry Dear.=)
Hes too hot to be ignored.
And atlast im done with my design assignment and Entrepreneur Proposal.
Argh.
13 freaking hours on the laptop.
Just to get this done.
Farker.
Bugger.
KaupehKaubu.
Kay im tired.
Rafi is already snoring away.
Leavin me alone.
hahaha.
U ah.Always like that.
Lucky i love you.
If not,my shoe is already in your mouth.
haha.
Kidding Hunn.
Xoxo.
Off to bed soon,after bathing.
*Did i deserve this?.i reckon so.*
Labels: I met him at a bar.Yeah righttt.
Baby aku pulak majok.haha.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Baby aku majok ke?.psl aku tak rindu kau?.
hahaha.SARAH,SARAH...AKU RINDU KAU JGAK LAH PANTAT.
Jgn majok lah okay?.
kite meetup soon and pegi mkn laksa with extra kerang and no taugeh.LOL!.
MY BODY IS ACHING?.massage me anyone?.haha.
Currently watching The Simpsons,eating chips with salsa cheese,ice cream and msn-ing.
Im currently addicted to Msn TicTacToe.
Yesterday played with Rafi<3.
We both suck real hard at that.
but still,i enjoyed it.
Rafi<3,
U dont want to buy me Mcflurry and watch The Losers.
Because i just ate one just now..
=(
Im having that random craving lah youuuu..
Hekboo!.
I♥YOU.
And i want ice cream pleaseee.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT ANYMORE.HAHAHA.
Kay bye.
*Rafi,One and only ultimatum.*
Labels: Hugs.Kisses.Tantrums.
My prettyhead girl.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
QISTHINA QURAIZHA,I MISS YOU LAH BUGGER.I WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU.
This desktop is sucha bitch.
Monday, May 24, 2010
I was doin my assignment when the comp hang,the song being played sounds like the DJ hittin the beat back and forth,and poof my screen went blank.i was like,WTFARK?.
Then i gave up on it for today.
Oh wells.
Lifes a bitch.
Was in the bus when i saw primary school kids with their big bags.
So friggin cute.Then SAAAPPPPP..She said something like,
"Kau sial lah,tkmo kacau aku lah bodoh!"
She said that to her friend,which was also around her age.Pri 3.
Shiiit.
I only learn my first vulgar word in pri 6.
And i believe,i didnt know the meaning but i still used that to call my friend.
The word?,Nonok.
HAHAHAHA.
And the DM suddenly enter my class for a check.
I have ciggs.
hahahaha.
Chill then.
And yes.
I somehow do miss the time when i was super close to my parents.
I miss huggin them and watch them from the windows when they go out to work.
I miss running to them when they fetch me or what not,(i dont expect them to fetch me now).LOL.
-I used to call them and ask where they are.bcos i miss them.
Now,i call them just bcos i want to know what time theyre coming home.
-Im shy to hug them.
Cos i feel im sucha grown-up.Fark this thinking.
-I used to tell them what happen in sch even without them asking.
Now i dont bother to,bcos they stop asking.
-I used to knock on their doors in the middle of the night just bcos i wouldnt wanna sleep alone or just had a nightmare.
Now i have to swallow it all in by myself.
I hate when i age too fast.
Im still young in the eyes of my parents and my brothers.
But i wont be in the following year.20.
I hate numbers.
why do we have to age?.
seriously?.
dumbfcuk.
Im lacking all this.
-Assurance.
-Self esteem.
-Confidence.
hahahahaha.Because aku slenger.
And,
I miss my Rafi.
Very much.
Labels: doing in a place like this?., whats somebody like you
Currently at Girlfriend's crib.Shes very much asleep.
Friday, May 21, 2010
And i cant sleep.geram sia/
but im still tired.
Pls sleep nadt.
Currently waiting..........
*Im addicted to 'if we ever meet again'..*
Labels: Baby tell whats ur story.
Calle Ocho.Go girl.Ay Chico.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Fark.
Fuck.
Fcuk.
PITBULL'S IN TOWN.in the Singapore scene.
And where am i?.
In class.
Fark sak.
My brother is going.
=(
I wanna go pleaseeee..
Anyone kind enough to buy me the tix?.
Booo!.
Superrr sexaye man in Singapore,yet im not going.
I shall cut my wrist.and bang my head in the lift.
And ask someone to curse me and call me Pukimaks.
U can slap and hit my head on the lift wall if u want.
hahahaha.
Cb.
I wanna go soo badly.
=(
*I could really use a wish right now.*
Labels: Wheres my fairy godparents?.
Im swearin and cursin soo badly.Imma die.
Monday, May 17, 2010
FARK..Im restless.
Too much thinkings..
Lesser naptime.
Fark u love..Im turnin into a nun.
Labels: Dumbfark.
Specially love-armored and candy-coated kisses.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Im watching a documentary on a Giant squid and colossal squid.Very much astounded.
Colossals eye balls are bigger than a soccer ball lah fark.heh.
I wanna make sushi of that giant squid.
(insert evil laugh.)
HAHA.
I realise after so long that i,am no longer active on msn.
Im going BBDC tomorrow.With Yan.
Theory and booking prac.
Seriously,Im bored.
Oh yes.
I was otw home just now with Yan,Faezah.
A guy stared at me and smiled wickedly,
i told Faz,She say he gt the Pervert look.
Scary okay.
Thanks ah babe.
And now,
I was abt to turn and talk to mama tadi,
i turn skali she was sound asleep.
Padahalkan,less than a minute ago,i was talkin to her,
Even abg and ayah is already snoring.
Me?
im just plain hungry.
Hahaha.
*Ok no idea what to blog abt..=) *
Labels: Who sia that guy?.step macho je.heh.
This is the stupid shit.Mr perah and his 'nonok'.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
(I want roses.Pls.Haha.)
Before i talked anything about my life or Him.
I wanna talked abt this.
What i would call,something stupid.A stupid shit.
So here goes,
Me and Yan just came out of BBDC,
had our theory just now.
We were talking just now.
Then we came upon a traffic light,
we saw this 'Mat' and 'Minah ITE' on this bike.
Okay,this girl is a plus sized.
i swear shes big.
Seiously,i dont lie abt sizes.
Hahahahahaha.
And the guy shouted something to us.
Something like,
'Eh jalan kaki ke?'
It was vivid but i know he was being sarcastic to us.
Knowin me,
i'll turn and stare at em.
Whadafark.
I know,like a minah.but i bet u guys will do that too.
So that farker perah2 his bike,if im not wrong,his RXZ.
A yellow RXZ.Fugly.
They were at the traffic light.
He perah-ed rabak,
i turn back again.
then SUDDENLY A LOUD CRASH,
I turned,seconds later yan turned too.
The idiots were already on on the road floor,
the bike was on top of em.
KIMAAKKKKKKKK.
KLAKAR OKAY.
i just feel like saying,"Eh jatoh ke?"
But nah,Im a goodgood.
i swear me and yan laughed badly.
then they just kept quiet and tried to recover quickly,
park the bike on the pavement and checked their condition.
Alahai,If u are carrying a pillion,
be careful.
Tu anak org.
Jgn lah maen giler kay.
Unless lah kau nak show off smue orang psl die lawa.
Tapi,cmon ah.
the girl is twice ur size.
its like both ur tyres combined.
Surely u will be cursing the world for fallin at the traffic junction,when u werent even on the move.
Kau.Kental.Aku.suke.kay bye.
*Lesson learnt faggs?.*
Labels: Stop it with the showin off.
I don't give a Fcuk.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
(No,its not for him.Its for..YOU.)
I miss you,Rafi.
*Hi sexaye..*
Labels: Yan is a gay.66+2
Wishful thinking.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
(While it last..)
Sometimes,knowing u cant have that person,just hurt so much.
And knowing i cant have you,hurts even more.
U should know why.
but u cant have everytg in the world.
Which for this case, YOU.
And i know,someday i have to let you go because i have to.
Cos holdin on,wont change anyones mind.
It ok.
And suddenly i dont feel like bloggin for today.
=(
*Sometimes i do wish i can be with you,officially.*
Labels: saddening.
The different type of people we meet.
(Dont ever okay.) (Fuckyeahrelationships.tumblr.com)
Anywhere.Everywhere.
Its scary if u bump into the wrong people.
So i was observant when i keep quiet.
But i dont judge people.
Maybe just assumin at some point of time.
I was inside the train,listenin to songs.
Play,pause,repeat.
Every song,different situation.
Those hardcore songs for those people rushin in the train just to get a seat.
Jiwang songs for those who board the mrt alone.
Hiphop songs for those in the mood.
Tetonic,hahaha.this is obvious.For the matreps.
Laidback songs,for those who,nak-step-cool,dlm mrt.
The ones who would stand near the door or anyway in the cabin,eventho theres plenty of seat around.
Ok maybe i do it at times,but because,in the cabin,theres alot of old people.
One moment u saw a seat,the next,u can see a very old woman runnin towards it.
If u get in here way,The best of luck if u dont suffer any injuries by the end of it.
Hahahaha.
Da diam.
Im still feeling super tired.lethargic.weak.Bleeeaarrggghhh.
Ill blog later.
Toodles.
*Its becoming a burden.*
Labels: Help anyone?.
I need to learn science again.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
(Hello there..)
ARGHH...AMY JUST TOLD ME SMTG..I LEARNT SOMETHING TODAY!.
Dinosaur are like chicken.
They dont play,Mother lays the egg,fathers fertilise the egg.
Thats what he teaches.
Lolll..confirm salah.
HAHAHA.
On the other hand,Kuntrak said theres some human beings who uses that kind of method too.
Lay eggs.Stupid kuntrak.
HAHAHAHA.
AKU EVIL.KAY BYE.
*HE'S FETCHING MEEEEE...*
Labels: Lol-ing.
My bestf is the greatest!.
(I wanna wait)..=)
I was talking to yan,then knowin the fact that mulot aku masin,which means to say,whatever i say is true,he cursed me,he said something about "may dinosaur stuff his dick in my mouth"..i laughed and turned to him.I randomly said,"eh kau pena wonder tk,dinosaur ade dick ke?,cmne dorg maen sey?"..Yes,out of total randomness i asked that.I know,i must be mad.or prolly not functioning in the head.
I like my randomness.
And u know what,i feel kinda..different today?.
Better i say?.
I felt better after telling u and talking things out.
Thou its halfway.
But i hate the fact that everyone seems to be talkin abt my ex to me.
Pls,if u have nothing to talk,then dont.
i rather listen to the awful silence then dread to death because of that.
I hate the fact that u guys think that he still has a part in my life.
if u think that way,maybe u should get ur facts straight.
And go screw Whores.
Even someone close to me suddenly talked abt him yest.
I feel like shoving my nutrisoy in ur nose.
I hate u mentionin abt him.
what more ur close to me.pls.
Understand what i am goin thru.and what ive gone thru.
I got a life too.
i dont live bootlicking people like he does.
I dont do stupid stuff just to impress people like he does.
I dont believe in impressing people.
cos impressin myself,its better.orgasmic enough.
I have a new obsession.
Drinking nutrisoy and eating two hotdogs.
I love spendin money.HAHAHAHA.
Im sooo lookin forward fo tomorrow.
Cant wait.=)
Right after sch and straight away there..
Hell yeah baby.
*Sorry,i dont think i can survive bein around you mafarkers.*
Labels: Cos u suck dick big time.
Wondered too much?.
Monday, May 3, 2010
(Yes,i really do.)(fuckyeahrelationships.tumblr.com)
Im sorry.For what i said.
Cause i dont wanna fall in deeper and knowin that..the fact is.u arent.
Im not selfish.
but for some reason,when it comes to u.
i wanna be selfish.
Im not fooling around.
U know that.
But im very much disappointed of the fact.
I have feelings too,remember?.
Im not posting this for nothing.
cos i care so much for you.
I dont wanna let go just bcos of that reason.
I wanna be there for u.
I like ur honesty.Tho it hurts.
I dont need to say who this post is meant for,
u know,and yes,everyone knows.
so lets not hide the fact ok.
I just hope u know whats right for u to do now.
til then,im always here for you.as always.
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Im tired.shagged.lethargic.and weak.
I didnt had enuff rest last night.
Mum saw my pathetic eyes.
She acted as if she didnt see it.
So til when will all this end..
Im very much sure,
im not this bad in the past to receive anything hurtful now.
Im not breaking down.
I know im much stronger.
i love you.
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SCHOOL CANCELLED TADI,WHEN I WAS ALR OTW TO SCH.
_l_ u for informin us last minute.
and i bumped into someone from the past.again.
HAIYA.haiya.argh.ARGH.
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I wanna fight for this Love.
*....R....*
Labels: Honeybee..