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the girl next door  Nadt Gyea. In denial of turnin 19 this year. H.nitec in Event Mgt.(Bishan). Rembuction/D.R.S Crew. Im full of Angst. Im single.Kening Up2.Haha. Ur mum warned u about me. |
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Finally,after 3months plus, I gathered back my courage to view back this blog.
Friday, October 29, 2010
And thought,updating it,wouldn't be a harm,true?.I didn't have much courage bcos everything inside here was about you. So into you. And very much in love with you. The one and only Rafi. Whom made a very much big impact in my 19years of life.
And the fact that,
I still do love you,and thought of you every now and then.
Every single day. The love is taking a toll on me. But such a waste,it's left broken and tattered,
So many times I felt ur presence. So many times. But when I look around,all I see is the bits and pieces of life fragments lying around waiting to be unfold.
I couldn't share it with anyone anymore. They wouldn't understand and I'll only get tongue lashing for not moving on.
But,oh God. I really do miss you.
There was never once that I stopped wishing,for you to come back around. Only God knows how truly elated and thankful I'll feel.
But if ever u don't come back around, I wished u the best for your future endeavours and pls take gd care of yourself. Ride safely always.
From the first time meeting-u bringing me to The Flyers for Popeyes and small chats and all. And to the last,at Tan tock seng,for my Scope and hospitals procedures. Friday.13th Aug.
Thank u so much for the endless love you've showered me with during these days I was with you.
The whole world stops, just to see u smile and laughed,just like when we were watching Despicable Me at Amk Hub.
I love you always. You'll always be my someone special.
Im so sorry.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I find myself thinking what to do,every now and then.
I dont wanna let you go,at the same time,i know u cant let go of...
Im stubborn.Just like you said.
I cried.And its not because of that problem.
I had a good yet meaningful cry yesterday.
When u left to meet my brother.
Ok im done blabbering.
I just need you to know that,
i love you.
I'll wait.
I really dont regret a thing
Let's start anew please. Forget the past and let's spend our life together.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
-I love you.
Labels: If only.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
(but i know i cant)
But i never did give up right?.
You keep telling me the same problem.
keep saying its unfair to me.
that it'll hurt me.
but i dont see u doing anything about it.
all you can ever do is think about that.
So all i can do now is do nothing.
let you decide cos afterall it only involves u in that matter.
ive been there for you right.
ive been trying hard to be there for you.
ive been trying hard to tell myself that u'll get over it.
ive been lying to myself saying things will be alright.
but i know it wont.
If im over here contemplating,
then what are you doing over there.
stop saying it.mean it.really.
i can tell you that one day im just gonna break down.
and its not about you.its about your problem.
if it takes you ages to get over it.
i wonder how long its gonna takes.
one day,really.
u do somtehing about it please.
sort it out.
sort ur feelings out.
i had enough of this problem.
it might be a norm to you.
but its hell to me.
Go figure.
And i just want you to know,that im still loving you.
kay? bye.
Labels: Exhausted thinking about all this.
♥BIRTHDAY SEX WITH BABYG♥
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Ok Ok.Im definitely gonna start bloggin.NOW.
been wanting to do that for the past hour,And shit,it never happened.
So yeah.
No distractions for now please.
Hows my day?.
PERFECT.
i couldnt ask for me.
When out with my BabyG to celebrate her belated birthday.
Planned to go Sentosa,
For some reasons,we didnt.
And headed to Marina Barrage instead.
It was pouring heavily.
And at first i thought the day wasnt gonna turn out well.
but eventually the rains stop.
Alhamdulillah..Soo soo glad.
We had a small picnic.
but a large feast for two.
-Mee Goreng.
-Cupcakes.
-Tuna sandwiches.
-Ruffles.
-Gummy bears.
-A big bottle of Passionfruit.
And Ciggarettes.
Okay the last one not needed.
And to hell with you,no smoking at Marina Barrage.
I dont even know why.
We ate and ate.
We talked.alot.
Gossip about those getting engaged and married soon.
About porns. =.=
About our exes.
About Rafi <3.
About HER YOURS TRULY.
About naked pictures. =.="..
About Ariel peterpan.U know why if u have been following the news.
About my past.
Her past.
And so much more.
Im glad i had the chat with your BabyG.
Then we Cam-Whored.
Its been awhile since i last do that.
Haha.
No partners liao.
Can someone be my Cam-Whoring partner.
Baby,would you?.Pleaseeeee.
Nyeh.
And we talked,laughed,sang then everyone started playing kites.
Alamak,Buat aku panas jee.
Soo..Haha.I bought one.
Fugging 18Bucks.
But for Qis nye pasal.
who cares.
hahaha.
WE PLAYED KITE-FLYING LIKE LITTLE KIDS.
JUMPED HERE AND THERE.FASCINATED SO BADLY BY IT,
AND ITS ACTUALLY MY VERY FIRST TIME KITE-FLYING.
SHUT UP.
theres always a first time for everything what.
CAN I PLEASE DO IT AGAIN?.
PLEASE.
haha.
thanks for today QISTHINA QURAIZHA.
I enjoyed it really much.
And our years of friendship.
You being there for me despite me whining too much.
And crying too much.
Thank you,
And these is the least i can do.
I found my happiness.And i hope it lasts so long.and i mean til i have saggy skins.haha.
And i hope you will find that someone someday soon.Real soon.
I love you bitch.
Youre my number one Bitch.
AWWWW....
LASTLY,happy birthday Qisthina Quraizha.
Labels: BabyG
This sucks.I swear.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Why dont i just fuck my own life now.Cos it sucks badly.
I cant own a Laptop.
Nor an iTouch.
And i have to do what i gotta do.
Ill just Shut the Fuck up now.
On Cloud Nine.Very much.
Monday, June 7, 2010
And you cant imagine how it felt like being so elated when i get to meet him atlast.
I know 2 weeks might not be a big deal but i do miss him that much.
I might not get to meet him that often in the future if,either he changes his job..or starts taking his Degree.Well,thats okay.Ill be patient.
It was my first day at work yest.Wooo..
I love being around small kids.
And yes,the place has kids from 5 to 9years olds.
Still so young and active.
And he offered to fetch me.
I was tired like hell.
So sweet of You Love.
And one of the kid there asked me to be his GirlFriend.
The moment i said i had one,he nearly cried.
Aiyoyo,so cute lah kau.
I might love the job.
I might even change interest in finding a work in the near future.
I might not be an event coordinator,i might just be a preschool teacher.
Weeee...
I love it.
And i love you Darl.
thank you for fetching me eventhough you're tired.
And you're my annoyingly cute Monster.
I gotta get back to work.
Hmmpft.
Faggs.
*Oh god..the menses is killing me.*
Labels: Wonderwoman kau...
15 minutes of pain felt like forever.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
My heartburn suddenly came back after so many months.
Out of the blue,while i was doing house chores.
Its scary.
I suddenly had fainting spells and everything was dark.
i kept my chill.
I closed my eyes hoping things will be alright after that.
It did.
i regain back my vision.
SCARYYY LAH SIAA.
Anywaysssss,
Went out today with Qis.Yang mcm minah tu tapi ade buah.
HAHAHA.
I had so so so much fun despite that my knee was complaining,
and guys i knew and some i dont,flirts around.
The last encounter was mcm SIAK.
(insert minahs voice)
Lu buat wa hot lah bruda,fikir klaka kape?.
Ah he tried to flirt by askin a cigg,looking at me in a menacing way and sit next to me while qis was in the ladies.
AKU TAKNAK LAYAN KAU LAH LAHABAO.
That phrase kept recurring in my head.
Mcm nak campak tu shaker fries je kat die.
He even called me sayang.
SAYANG?SAYANG?
Ah meh sini jilat kaki aku.
Nyeh.
Whats with guys and girls nowadays hah?
Knowing that the person is attached but u still have that okay go mindset.
U sucks okay.
Argh my tummy hurts.
Ate too much just now.
AND I GOT TO EAT MY LAKSA JUST NOW.HAHAHA.
HAPPYYYYYYYYY!.
HEH.nyeh.
Rafi <3
Boo u wasted 800bucks on ur bike.
Booooooooooo!..
haha.
Can get u another Iphone.
Hahaha.
And please eat okay,
i dont want ur gastric to come again.
Oh dear,i miss you soo much lahh..
I actually forgotten why i called you justin bieber.. =.=
And...
K bye.
Te amor.
You...
You...
You...
Kental.
I?..
tetap sayang.
nyeh.
so mushy.
Xoxoxo.
I miss alot of things.
I miss the times you said i love you out of the blue.
I miss the times you annoyed me with your indirect jokes about me.
I miss being in your arms.
I miss T.i..okay nie takde link.
And the fact is that i miss you so much.
I wanna meet you pretty soon.Please..=(
And I Love You more than you think i could,i would and im capable of.
*SAYA RINDU RAFIUDDIN AFFENDI!.*
Labels: And i love you unlike other.
The start of my angst.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Yes.And yes.
I am full of angst.
I get annoyed easily if you guys suddenly annoy me out of the blue.
But ill try to cover up.
And congratulations Nadiah F.A..
For being so stupidly emotional yesterday.
I cried myself to sleep.
How dumb is that?.
And yada3,of course i told you things were okay.
But i did let it out after that.
I wasnt sure if its proper.
Maybe?.
Baby i just cant do it.
And sometimes it make me wanna cry.
And..
AKU SKIPPED MY FED-EX WORKSHOP TODAY.
9 to 5Pm.
Org giler mane nak pergi?.
Confirm kalau dtg balek sch,kene radio.
Abes lahhh..
Start at 10-ish.
I walk off at 12.
HAHAHAHA.
Da lah dtg lmbt.
And my whole class was MIA.
Except one.
=)
Some paitao.
Some lazy.
Some saket,Saket kuat tu.
Some ade prac.
Some....malas.
Eh isnt it the same nadt?
Haha.
The talk was about Fed Ex. =..=
Okay i know im supposed to pay attention.
But..CMON LAH,9 HOURS OF LECTURE IN AUDITORIUM?.
Meh sini jilat kaki aku dulu.
Rafi <3 kene injection tadi..
Aiyerrrrrrr...
Needles.
Boo you whore!.
Kental sey you..
Nyeh.Mcm paham je nadt.
Nadt:
Shes indecisive.
Shes blur cock.
Shes hot tempered.
She bleh-tahan-kurang-bijak.
Shes irritating.
She love being a bitch with her Bestfriends.
Hahahaha.
And yes,they still stick with me after that.
Im to cute to be ignored.
=P
I wish our hearts can come together as one always.
Someone ask me out to club yesterday.And today.
HAHAHAHAHA.
(Insert line minah2)
LU BIKEN LAWAK LAH BRUDER.
if you notice,
I dont.Never.Not once.
Unless if youre talking about going there and performing,
then tu laen citer bengap.
I dont club.
I dont drink.
I just smoke.
Im not being the stereotype-kind-of-person.
But yeah,
hot place+crowd+Drunk morons+Bitches=Not me.=)
And yes,
I may look like a minah,(Nie confirm shitnye kan.)but i leave you to figure the rest out about me.Peace.
Bla.Bla.Bla.
Hmmmm.
Rafi <3,
how are you lahhhhh?.
I miss you lah meaniemonster.
=(..The last time we meet was...22 may?.
11 days!.arghhhhhhhhhhhh.
I macam nak gigit kpale u tau.
Haha.
I just miss you so much.Period.
I could be chasing.But my time would be wasted.So...Lets leave it to what life brings me to.
*And for the umpteenth time,I still LOVE you.*
Labels: Weird aura.
Listen to your heart.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
(Sexy can i?)
Seriously?.Why listen to your heart when your heart is the one causing you the pain and hurtings?.
Sometimes i do want my mind to do the talking.
because my feelings wont get hurt.
But afterall,
im no superhuman.
Even superman gets hurt by love.
Never a right time to say anything or do anything right?.
(sigh)
(SIGH)
Maybe im scared.
Theres too many things im scared off right now about this relationship.
That is,
If it turns out like my previous relationships.
Not being able to love him the way he wants me to.
Or maybe the simplest things like fulfill-ing the relationship needs.
Or maybe just being his ideal girlfriend.
Hmmmm..
See,maybe im afraid of not being up to his standards until i even forget to even satisfy the basic needs of the relationship.
Someone please,
come to my aid.
I love my Rafi.
I love Us.
I love myself.=)
I dont want to know that i have to let go of it in the future.
I want us to settle down together.
Hmmmm cute kan aku nie?.
Fikir senang pe.
But im ready to commit.(Insert innocent sweet face)
My heart races everytime i think about you.
I keep thinking if we will still exist tomorrow.
And my mind wanders off whenever u arent here.
I smile everytime when ur name is mentioned.
My heart froze when i think back of all the sweet things you have done.
And im going to shut up now.
because this is just a blog.
Not a councillor.
HAHA.
Rafi Dearest,
Booo,u so mean.
I eat alot because i hungry okay.
not because im a monster.
And yes,
I LOVE...MY CHICKEN DRUMLETS.
hahahahaha.
Te amor.
*Argh shucks its aching again.*
Labels: What if the day never comes
Guy Slaps Girl (Singapore)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.Okay im so sorry.but this is way too funny.Peace Yall.Dont mean to involve anyone.=)
HAHAHAHAHA.
OKAY AKU DIAM.
Told chu im going come back pretty soon.haha.
Monday, May 31, 2010
This is sooo SEXAYE...
ON SECOND THOUGHTS,IMMA PASS.WADAFARK
Dammit lahh..soo pretty siak.
Cb ah kau.
Aku pun tak gitu lawa.
Pukimaks.
Sheesh.
*get it tonight*
Labels: Trans.Trans.Lawa bodoh kau.
Sayang,pegi Melaka ke buat Melaka?.
WALAUWEIII...I MISPLACED MY THUBDRIVE.
Im not controlling your space.Really.
But i worry of your safety.
You know it was raining right.
And i just wanna know if ure safe or not.
Maybe u dont have AutoRoam like i do.
But im just scared,something might happen.
And yes,Home sucks badly right now.
Mum is having Extreme PMS.
Dad is nagging like no ones business.
And i really need a shoulder to lean on.
Someone to talk to.
Brother is going out soon.
And ill be the only victim of their naggings.
Oh gosh.
Torment me with something else please.
I could live with that.
I dont wanna be accused wrongly.
Stop blaming me for my siblings mistake.
Im the youngest.HELLOOOO,shouldnt i be the one prone to doing more mistakes?
Come back home quick from Melaka please.
I miss you.
Telinga i berdarah dengar dorg beleter.
Great singapore sale pun tk gini kecoh.
<3<3<3
And I swear im like a pig now.
Eating almost anything i bought at NTUC.
I bought Cheezel(Large),Chipsmore,2 choc bar,1 laksa instant noodle,3 packets of twisties(Large Size) and a bottle of peanut butter.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
Nie baru perangai babi buntal.
And ive been chewing non stop.
Deprive maybe?.
Haha.
Someone,save me before i finish everything please.
Berightback.
Busy chewing away..
Sayang,I rindu you.
Labels: Will you?
And i lost more than i had ever won.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
And my jaw literally dropped.
I adjust my body position.
Sat nearer to the laptop.
And wonder.
For a moment,i was..a bitch.
And yes,im back to my normal self.
Its okay.
Its long gone.=)
I wanna share something then,
since im talkin about this topic.
Then lets talk about it once and for all.
Last 5 years,i did met someone,
I was at my breaking down point,
So when you tried to do something,to make me like you.
I didnt felt a thing.
Then i told myself,to give you a chance.
So i did,it went on for 3 months.
I knew something was wrong but i just kept mum.
bcos i trust him to tell me everything.
Then the first incident was when i had a photo of you,
my fren saw it,
they asked me abt you,
i paused.
Dumbfounded.
Still,u refused to tell.Fine.
Then this incident,
i put ur pic at my profile,
and ive seen this coming tho.
My cousin knew you,
Thats because your girlfren was her bestfriend.
Read this again,
i repeat.
YOUR CURRENT GIRLFRIEND.
what was i again?
She was even pregnant.
Then i let you go,
For the better or the worst.
I had difficulty moving on.
because you keep appearing in my life every now and then.
And i fell for you again.
And yes,you got urself another girlfriend again.
And you told me to hang on because you and her couldnt last long.
That you love me more than her.
And that i mean more to you.
That make me wait long.quite long.
5years was fcuking long.
Then you didnt do anything,
i moved on but i told you that no matter what,
i am still here.
See the Love i had for you back then?.
So pure.
Stupid hah.
Then i got a bf.
Then you came back.
I should have known.
I let you wait,for 2 months only,
yet you were impatient.
I guess so.
Thanks.
You left again.
With this chick.
Now,(back then)
i got to know of a guy.
U disagreed.
I effed cared.
Cos u still had her.
i want my share of happiness.
i want someone to love to.
someone whom i can love endlessly without worrying that ur other girlfren will find out.
Then i fell hard for him,
Way too hard.
Seeing that,
i told you off,
that 5 years of your so called love for me ended just like that.
Because of that one sentence i told you.
I love HIM too much to be with someone whom wasted my teen life.
You covered up pretty bad.
Thats okay.
Like i said,ive seen it all coming.
And believe me,
Till this date,
im still with him.
Its not that long,
but it was sure worth it.
Your 5years is NOTHING compared to this.
With that,
I hope ure happy with your current life.
Current girlfren(s).
I never regretted leaving you.
I only wanna grow old with Rafi <3.
IN YOUR FACE SUCKER.
(NOW INSERT SMILEYFACE)
Fark you bugger.
Because of you,
love was just a word back then.
And fuck love,i turning into a nun.
HAHAHAHAHA.
*You just take it away.*
Labels: Y=you suck.
But im confused lah.how?
Saturday, May 29, 2010
(Argh.)
Sometimes without you realising it,
U tend to contradict things.
And i fcuking hate it when that happens.
Sometimes you can be that Sweetlove im always aww-ing for.
The the next moment,You will say things indirectly and making things hard.
This is not what you u call problems in Love.
This is what you can avoid when in a relationship.
And yes,honesty do helps in a relationship.
And it hurts alot too.
What you say,contradicts.
What ill be doing?.Sitting down and cant help but to think of all this.
And i dont think youre aware of all this.
It sucks.
And i hate the fact that i love you so much,
And my heart is doing too much talking,but my mind isnt.
But can you do me this favour?.
Please.
Get over it.Ok.
The hurt is turning into angst.
And you know what,
what you say,its true.
Its unfair for me.
ARGHILOVEYOUSOMUCHIHATEMYSELFFORLOVINGYOU
* Dont get fresh with me Boy *
Labels: I miss you.And.I love You.
Thank you Baby.
Sayang,Thanks for the Ruffles.
=)
And i have a weakness for people who buys me stuff without me telling them to.
in another words,havin the iniative.
Especially my loved ones.
And its soo sweet that i think if i were to get it while walking,
i would trip and melt instantaneously.
I love you.
And im already eating it now.
Sedaaaaappppp!.
Brb okays....
Wanna eat..Hahaha.
Labels: I wanna love you likei never did.Always.
Im secretly dating Ryan Sheckler an T.i..HAHA.
Hahahahaha.(Drooling).
Sorry Dear.=)
Hes too hot to be ignored.
And atlast im done with my design assignment and Entrepreneur Proposal.
Argh.
13 freaking hours on the laptop.
Just to get this done.
Farker.
Bugger.
KaupehKaubu.
Kay im tired.
Rafi is already snoring away.
Leavin me alone.
hahaha.
U ah.Always like that.
Lucky i love you.
If not,my shoe is already in your mouth.
haha.
Kidding Hunn.
Xoxo.
Off to bed soon,after bathing.
*Did i deserve this?.i reckon so.*
Labels: I met him at a bar.Yeah righttt.
Baby aku pulak majok.haha.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Baby aku majok ke?.psl aku tak rindu kau?.
hahaha.SARAH,SARAH...AKU RINDU KAU JGAK LAH PANTAT.
Jgn majok lah okay?.
kite meetup soon and pegi mkn laksa with extra kerang and no taugeh.LOL!.
MY BODY IS ACHING?.massage me anyone?.haha.
Currently watching The Simpsons,eating chips with salsa cheese,ice cream and msn-ing.
Im currently addicted to Msn TicTacToe.
Yesterday played with Rafi<3.
We both suck real hard at that.
but still,i enjoyed it.
Rafi<3,
U dont want to buy me Mcflurry and watch The Losers.
Because i just ate one just now..
=(
Im having that random craving lah youuuu..
Hekboo!.
I♥YOU.
And i want ice cream pleaseee.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT ANYMORE.HAHAHA.
Kay bye.
*Rafi,One and only ultimatum.*
Labels: Hugs.Kisses.Tantrums.
My prettyhead girl.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
QISTHINA QURAIZHA,I MISS YOU LAH BUGGER.I WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU.
This desktop is sucha bitch.
Monday, May 24, 2010
I was doin my assignment when the comp hang,the song being played sounds like the DJ hittin the beat back and forth,and poof my screen went blank.i was like,WTFARK?.
Then i gave up on it for today.
Oh wells.
Lifes a bitch.
Was in the bus when i saw primary school kids with their big bags.
So friggin cute.Then SAAAPPPPP..She said something like,
"Kau sial lah,tkmo kacau aku lah bodoh!"
She said that to her friend,which was also around her age.Pri 3.
Shiiit.
I only learn my first vulgar word in pri 6.
And i believe,i didnt know the meaning but i still used that to call my friend.
The word?,Nonok.
HAHAHAHA.
And the DM suddenly enter my class for a check.
I have ciggs.
hahahaha.
Chill then.
And yes.
I somehow do miss the time when i was super close to my parents.
I miss huggin them and watch them from the windows when they go out to work.
I miss running to them when they fetch me or what not,(i dont expect them to fetch me now).LOL.
-I used to call them and ask where they are.bcos i miss them.
Now,i call them just bcos i want to know what time theyre coming home.
-Im shy to hug them.
Cos i feel im sucha grown-up.Fark this thinking.
-I used to tell them what happen in sch even without them asking.
Now i dont bother to,bcos they stop asking.
-I used to knock on their doors in the middle of the night just bcos i wouldnt wanna sleep alone or just had a nightmare.
Now i have to swallow it all in by myself.
I hate when i age too fast.
Im still young in the eyes of my parents and my brothers.
But i wont be in the following year.20.
I hate numbers.
why do we have to age?.
seriously?.
dumbfcuk.
Im lacking all this.
-Assurance.
-Self esteem.
-Confidence.
hahahahaha.Because aku slenger.
And,
I miss my Rafi.
Very much.
Labels: doing in a place like this?., whats somebody like you
Currently at Girlfriend's crib.Shes very much asleep.
Friday, May 21, 2010
And i cant sleep.geram sia/
but im still tired.
Pls sleep nadt.
Currently waiting..........
*Im addicted to 'if we ever meet again'..*
Labels: Baby tell whats ur story.
Calle Ocho.Go girl.Ay Chico.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Fark.
Fuck.
Fcuk.
PITBULL'S IN TOWN.in the Singapore scene.
And where am i?.
In class.
Fark sak.
My brother is going.
=(
I wanna go pleaseeee..
Anyone kind enough to buy me the tix?.
Booo!.
Superrr sexaye man in Singapore,yet im not going.
I shall cut my wrist.and bang my head in the lift.
And ask someone to curse me and call me Pukimaks.
U can slap and hit my head on the lift wall if u want.
hahahaha.
Cb.
I wanna go soo badly.
=(
*I could really use a wish right now.*
Labels: Wheres my fairy godparents?.
Im swearin and cursin soo badly.Imma die.
Monday, May 17, 2010
FARK..Im restless.
Too much thinkings..
Lesser naptime.
Fark u love..Im turnin into a nun.
Labels: Dumbfark.
Specially love-armored and candy-coated kisses.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Im watching a documentary on a Giant squid and colossal squid.Very much astounded.
Colossals eye balls are bigger than a soccer ball lah fark.heh.
I wanna make sushi of that giant squid.
(insert evil laugh.)
HAHA.
I realise after so long that i,am no longer active on msn.
Im going BBDC tomorrow.With Yan.
Theory and booking prac.
Seriously,Im bored.
Oh yes.
I was otw home just now with Yan,Faezah.
A guy stared at me and smiled wickedly,
i told Faz,She say he gt the Pervert look.
Scary okay.
Thanks ah babe.
And now,
I was abt to turn and talk to mama tadi,
i turn skali she was sound asleep.
Padahalkan,less than a minute ago,i was talkin to her,
Even abg and ayah is already snoring.
Me?
im just plain hungry.
Hahaha.
*Ok no idea what to blog abt..=) *
Labels: Who sia that guy?.step macho je.heh.
This is the stupid shit.Mr perah and his 'nonok'.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
(I want roses.Pls.Haha.)
Before i talked anything about my life or Him.
I wanna talked abt this.
What i would call,something stupid.A stupid shit.
So here goes,
Me and Yan just came out of BBDC,
had our theory just now.
We were talking just now.
Then we came upon a traffic light,
we saw this 'Mat' and 'Minah ITE' on this bike.
Okay,this girl is a plus sized.
i swear shes big.
Seiously,i dont lie abt sizes.
Hahahahahaha.
And the guy shouted something to us.
Something like,
'Eh jalan kaki ke?'
It was vivid but i know he was being sarcastic to us.
Knowin me,
i'll turn and stare at em.
Whadafark.
I know,like a minah.but i bet u guys will do that too.
So that farker perah2 his bike,if im not wrong,his RXZ.
A yellow RXZ.Fugly.
They were at the traffic light.
He perah-ed rabak,
i turn back again.
then SUDDENLY A LOUD CRASH,
I turned,seconds later yan turned too.
The idiots were already on on the road floor,
the bike was on top of em.
KIMAAKKKKKKKK.
KLAKAR OKAY.
i just feel like saying,"Eh jatoh ke?"
But nah,Im a goodgood.
i swear me and yan laughed badly.
then they just kept quiet and tried to recover quickly,
park the bike on the pavement and checked their condition.
Alahai,If u are carrying a pillion,
be careful.
Tu anak org.
Jgn lah maen giler kay.
Unless lah kau nak show off smue orang psl die lawa.
Tapi,cmon ah.
the girl is twice ur size.
its like both ur tyres combined.
Surely u will be cursing the world for fallin at the traffic junction,when u werent even on the move.
Kau.Kental.Aku.suke.kay bye.
*Lesson learnt faggs?.*
Labels: Stop it with the showin off.
I don't give a Fcuk.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
(No,its not for him.Its for..YOU.)
I miss you,Rafi.
*Hi sexaye..*
Labels: Yan is a gay.66+2
Wishful thinking.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
(While it last..)
Sometimes,knowing u cant have that person,just hurt so much.
And knowing i cant have you,hurts even more.
U should know why.
but u cant have everytg in the world.
Which for this case, YOU.
And i know,someday i have to let you go because i have to.
Cos holdin on,wont change anyones mind.
It ok.
And suddenly i dont feel like bloggin for today.
=(
*Sometimes i do wish i can be with you,officially.*
Labels: saddening.
The different type of people we meet.
(Dont ever okay.) (Fuckyeahrelationships.tumblr.com)
Anywhere.Everywhere.
Its scary if u bump into the wrong people.
So i was observant when i keep quiet.
But i dont judge people.
Maybe just assumin at some point of time.
I was inside the train,listenin to songs.
Play,pause,repeat.
Every song,different situation.
Those hardcore songs for those people rushin in the train just to get a seat.
Jiwang songs for those who board the mrt alone.
Hiphop songs for those in the mood.
Tetonic,hahaha.this is obvious.For the matreps.
Laidback songs,for those who,nak-step-cool,dlm mrt.
The ones who would stand near the door or anyway in the cabin,eventho theres plenty of seat around.
Ok maybe i do it at times,but because,in the cabin,theres alot of old people.
One moment u saw a seat,the next,u can see a very old woman runnin towards it.
If u get in here way,The best of luck if u dont suffer any injuries by the end of it.
Hahahaha.
Da diam.
Im still feeling super tired.lethargic.weak.Bleeeaarrggghhh.
Ill blog later.
Toodles.
*Its becoming a burden.*
Labels: Help anyone?.
I need to learn science again.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
(Hello there..)
ARGHH...AMY JUST TOLD ME SMTG..I LEARNT SOMETHING TODAY!.
Dinosaur are like chicken.
They dont play,Mother lays the egg,fathers fertilise the egg.
Thats what he teaches.
Lolll..confirm salah.
HAHAHA.
On the other hand,Kuntrak said theres some human beings who uses that kind of method too.
Lay eggs.Stupid kuntrak.
HAHAHAHA.
AKU EVIL.KAY BYE.
*HE'S FETCHING MEEEEE...*
Labels: Lol-ing.
My bestf is the greatest!.
(I wanna wait)..=)
I was talking to yan,then knowin the fact that mulot aku masin,which means to say,whatever i say is true,he cursed me,he said something about "may dinosaur stuff his dick in my mouth"..i laughed and turned to him.I randomly said,"eh kau pena wonder tk,dinosaur ade dick ke?,cmne dorg maen sey?"..Yes,out of total randomness i asked that.I know,i must be mad.or prolly not functioning in the head.
I like my randomness.
And u know what,i feel kinda..different today?.
Better i say?.
I felt better after telling u and talking things out.
Thou its halfway.
But i hate the fact that everyone seems to be talkin abt my ex to me.
Pls,if u have nothing to talk,then dont.
i rather listen to the awful silence then dread to death because of that.
I hate the fact that u guys think that he still has a part in my life.
if u think that way,maybe u should get ur facts straight.
And go screw Whores.
Even someone close to me suddenly talked abt him yest.
I feel like shoving my nutrisoy in ur nose.
I hate u mentionin abt him.
what more ur close to me.pls.
Understand what i am goin thru.and what ive gone thru.
I got a life too.
i dont live bootlicking people like he does.
I dont do stupid stuff just to impress people like he does.
I dont believe in impressing people.
cos impressin myself,its better.orgasmic enough.
I have a new obsession.
Drinking nutrisoy and eating two hotdogs.
I love spendin money.HAHAHAHA.
Im sooo lookin forward fo tomorrow.
Cant wait.=)
Right after sch and straight away there..
Hell yeah baby.
*Sorry,i dont think i can survive bein around you mafarkers.*
Labels: Cos u suck dick big time.
Wondered too much?.
Monday, May 3, 2010
(Yes,i really do.)(fuckyeahrelationships.tumblr.com)
Im sorry.For what i said.
Cause i dont wanna fall in deeper and knowin that..the fact is.u arent.
Im not selfish.
but for some reason,when it comes to u.
i wanna be selfish.
Im not fooling around.
U know that.
But im very much disappointed of the fact.
I have feelings too,remember?.
Im not posting this for nothing.
cos i care so much for you.
I dont wanna let go just bcos of that reason.
I wanna be there for u.
I like ur honesty.Tho it hurts.
I dont need to say who this post is meant for,
u know,and yes,everyone knows.
so lets not hide the fact ok.
I just hope u know whats right for u to do now.
til then,im always here for you.as always.
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Im tired.shagged.lethargic.and weak.
I didnt had enuff rest last night.
Mum saw my pathetic eyes.
She acted as if she didnt see it.
So til when will all this end..
Im very much sure,
im not this bad in the past to receive anything hurtful now.
Im not breaking down.
I know im much stronger.
i love you.
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SCHOOL CANCELLED TADI,WHEN I WAS ALR OTW TO SCH.
_l_ u for informin us last minute.
and i bumped into someone from the past.again.
HAIYA.haiya.argh.ARGH.
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I wanna fight for this Love.
*....R....*
Labels: Honeybee..
My ear is bleeding..again.
Friday, April 30, 2010
(I dont mind being his jailmate. >,< ....)
Heres another guy whom i totally dig..
Bald/Crewcut/Mullet hairstyle.
Bdn thin but nice abs bebeh.
i got a thing for this kinda guy.
Sorry ah klu korg tk suke,
klu smue pompan suke,
laki laen ltak mane?
pocket doraemon?
word.
A day out with Sarah & Nabilah was KRAZY.
Helluva time.
Sick i tell u.
We laugh like we are the only goons on earth.
I keep saying gonjeng.
Nab keep talkin..but not lookin at the person she intended to talk to.
Sarah was totally random everytime..from work,to cat to kakak sdare whose a nurse.
Haha.Krazzaye yaw..
We talk about someone we know.
Sorry ah Dyn,its not u.
Dont feelin2 ah boy.
So we talk and gossip.
Rabak pe die.
=.-
Got such person exist ah.
Scary.
We went to eat at Fish N chicks.
Aku mcm biase, RibEye Steak.
Orgasmic oiii..
The pics are with Sarah.
Sarah Baby,Do your thang.
Looking forward to meeting you guys again.
Thanks for everything Lovelies!.
Da best.
Schools a bore.
The one attending it is also a boar.
My ear bled.Again.Pain.Cb.
He was so so worried,
so cute..ah wooooo..so sweet..
WOOT WOOT.
im on cloud nine 10000x.
hehe.
Muacks.
OK,enough bloggin for today.
arm in pain.
Fark.
He got that goodgood.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
(Now she got that goodgood,im nicki minajs fan..)
Shes the real deal.
Side-tracking...
I know you want me.
You know i want cha.
~Pitbull.
I wanna watch him.
And his sexyback.
Hes so..Ladies man.
Da diam.
Aiya,tk dpt beli ticket die leii.
Farkyoufishheadcurry.
Hes comin on 18 may.
=(
I wanna see his bald head.
haha.
Tralala~...
Oh someone blogged about me.
Out of random.
Well,thanks babe.
Maybe for bloggin bout me?.
In some ways.
Haha.
And some point to be taken in,
Yup,
im nadt.A dancer.His ex ex.
Shes Nab,Shes a nurse.Ur ex ex too.
Hes ----,hes a nurse too.A part time nurse.And a full time fagg.
Just like what i mentioned to nab.
HAHAHA.
u should have written that babe,
Confirm ur blog PANAS PANAS SENSASI!.
HAHAHA.
I got to know of an interesting fact by Zyeza Estella (lingkop sudah),
In Roger that video by Young Money,
Nicki minaj said assalamualaikum
~Wow~
Go check it out chulos.
Last warning..Dope ehk.
And siak eh.
Last warnin for this also.
Aku ngn sarah talk cock sia.
Caucasian jadi cock-asians.
and some explicit contents.
Sorry not for the faint hearted,
Babe,dirty sick ass siak kite.
I could slaughter myself for sayin all that,
haha.
sick faggs.
\m/
Shit,im sweating again.
and having my night rashes.
_l_
Needta bathe again.
Oh im having lunch cum dinner with my babygs tomorrow.
Woots woots.
Im lookin forward to it ok.
So im wondering,
if someone texts me and said something,
which made my heart missed a beat and having butterflies in my butt,i mean heart.
what does it mean?.
Cos im havin that feeling now.
And aku suke!.
Hi monster.=P
kay bye.
Tadi aku prangai babi kene rasok ananconda.
mkn nasi with lemak cili padi(aku masak!),then mcwings,then chicken cutlet spaghetti,nasi campor,then rainbow rice balls,maggi then another serving of rice.
Helluva time.
Im loving it~
Ok i wanna watch tv now.
TTFN!..take that abg..haha.
=)
*Hey gorgeous,i mean flawless umm..*
Labels: My rib-eyed steak tomorrow.
I ACTUALLY FALL IN loike WITH THIS PIC.NOT GUY.
Monday, April 26, 2010
pics from (fuckyeahhotstuff.com)
I BET QIS LOVE THIS.HAHAHA.
Labels: KENING UP2.
I FEEL LIKE BLOGGING AGAIN TODAY.
Cos im bored.aje.okay.bye.
I might not be coming school later.
Bcos..ah nothang.
I might be startin back my routine back.
Cos my back feels better now.
I can jog and exercise safely now.=)
Someone is gettin on my nerve this minute.
Be gone ass.
And also when i went for a jog just now.
Fark u boy.
Yes, what i said is true.
No,i dont wanna go back to u.
Yes,i still feel hurt by what u did.
But no,its not bcos of that i still love you.
Get this,
I dont.
I was.
But i regretted.
U still have the cheek to ask me why we went our seperate ways.
Yelah2,my fault kay.
Sorry that im just too good enough for u.
That u cant find any replacements just yet.
Sorry for not being sorry ok.
Burn in hell bitch.hahaha.
aku evil.diam.
And otw home from sch just now,
guess what i saw.
Maggots.
Freaking yucky maggots on the padang next to cwp.
I was draggin my ass home,smokin and too tired to pay attention to anything when i actually notice the white stuffs all on the floor.
At first sight,aku go eeeyyerrr..
then on,i laughed.
i actually stopped and laughed.
=,=
Wthell kan.
Just becos aku teringat abt smtg.
i call yan,maggot.
so when i saw it,
i kinda imagine Yan lyin on the padang there,
instead of being in sch,
AND ONE NYONYA LOOKED AT ME AND ACTUALLY SIGHED.tot i was mad.
sorry ah yan.
aku terketawe skjap psl tu.
Ok2 i wont call u manggot no more.
Did i mention i hate mascots?.
Barney?
and clown?
yes.
i hate all that.
And i wana continue writin down abt the random facts abt me.
Random Facts part 2.
-I find myself overweight.
-I like to check girls out.(aku bkn senget,i just adore the perfection-ism)
-Again,i hate mascots.
-I love kids,then again when i see cute ones,i tend to say this,EH CUTENYE,MCM NAK KENE TENDANG..yes,theres something wrong with me.
-I am claustrophobic.
-I am still me,naive.
-I love piercings,but not to the extreme.
-Ive pierced my belly 4 times.Might be goin for the 5th.
-Ive pierced my tragus thrice.Had to remove bcos my tragus was too small.Swollen.
-The only idiot i can trust is,Qisthina Quraizha.Oh shes my bestf.
-I have curfews.Yes.Kental.Before magrib.
SPEAKING OF CURFEWS..
wanna knw why it was actually so called established?.
Cos of the few cases of outrage modesty and molest cases near hse.
And the pundeks who lepak at the void deck.
Some are drunk,noisy.
Others,there are themselves,thats why i hate em.
Also,thanks to the immature mats and minah under the block too.
Singin ur butt off.*middle finger up*
And also bcos of family stuff.
Im adaptin to it now,
finds that its actually great stayin at home,
cos u have ur bed and pillows nearby.
Sorry ah.
Im just like that.
like what he will call me.
Lazy bumbum.
>,<
Ok im hungry now.
Tummy is grumbling.
brb.
*Ur love is my drug*
Labels: Wink wink.
Its raining man.HAHA.
Class start at 1.Aku dtg at 1.21pm.
Ni Syed ngn Haikal mati2 salahkan aku psl tk kasi dorg a lift.
Its not my car ok korg.
Jgn ah frust menongeng.
And the best part,cikgu tk dtg.
Thanks bitch.
Facebook at school was a whore.
U cant comment nor do anything.
so puas hati,tkya buat pape.
Aku lapar.
Aku mendak.
Aku ngantok.
Aku nak isap rokok.
My hand hurts,
thanks to sleepin like a fugly monster in bed.
i woke up and my hand was under my body.
flat,like a prata.
And im having my night rashes every night.
Still.
Thats why i call it night rashes.
And im currently browsing thru fuckyeahladygaga.
So im kinda distracted.Back later..
*Supagirl..Supa Supa Girl..*
Semi-Confused.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Did i mentioned that i LOVE T.I?.
Oh hell yeah i do.
Babygirls,lets salivate.
Have u guys hear him rapped?.
U will literally melt instaneously by his voice.
So what if hes been in and out of prison?.
He served his time.
That just make him hawt-er.
I bet u suckers dont know his real name,(well aku baru tau 5mins ago)
Name die is..CLIFFORD JOSEPH HARRIS JR...hahaha.confirm korg muke berubah jadi tempek.
Jauh beza kan.kan.kan.
And for heaven sake,hes 30 as of 2010.
Still,he make a hawt daddy.
Can i be ur wifey?.ok maybe daughter?.
Dammnnnn.
From T.I.P to T.i,out of respect for label mate Q-Tip.
And..!
He has his own clothing line,
launched back in 2008.
AKOO,A kings of oneself.
Sadly,its only menswear.
He might look,yaknow,small in size.
but he sure makes ladies go head over heels for him.
haha.Including yours truly.
When is he ever gonna come to Singapore.
AND AND,
i heard Nicki Minaj is comin to Singapore.
Is it?
Is she?.
Damnnnn..
Ok,Enough yakkin of T.i..
Lets talk about whats in town.
Pitbull is gonna leave his footsteps here baby.
HAHAHA.
Another Bald guy which i totally dig.
Anyway,
Sunday was B-o-r-i-n-g.
Kill me someone.
But yesterday was suprisingly fun.
Except for the part where everyone made fun of my...ass.
Hello,its not big.Period.
We had a Big feast.
My stomach was freakingly bloated.
My pants was gonna burst.
But i sure did enjoy my time,
Until,we got home,
Both brothers nowhere in house,
went to send their gf/tunang home.
Aku?..mcm janda kt rumah.
Waited patiently for them to be home.
Mum asked me to get a bf.
Haiyoyo Mama,not now.
Maybe when im fully recovered.
I love my life the way it is now.
With him around.
Thats awesomely-enough for me.
ARGH.MONDAY.TOMORROW.FML.GO DIE.
*Im craving for a lollipop...*
Labels: Hawtshot.
Tralalala..
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Err..Right..Thanks..=)
Labels: Dibo.
The Usual.
(I wanna be this lady pls).
http://fuckyeahskinnybitch.tumblr.com/page/3
Hi.As per normal,im bored to death.Okay Bye.
======Boring post=====
Was supposed to go out with <3 but..GAGAGAGA..Nothing =)
Going out with Family later.
Aku sorang again.Argh.Fark.
Maybe i need to get used to this.
I cant always suroh org layan aku kan.
Fish head sia tu.
I dont get bored easily.
I get lonely easily.
>>>>>><<<<<<
Lately,
it wasnt easy for me.
Everyone was talking bout the past.My past.
Everyone just had to asked me what happen right.
Its been months,i dont wish to rake it up.
I know we couldnt last long,
but i never expected it to happen this fast.
Just a lesson learn.
If u guys still wanna poke ur nose around and ask about the past.
U can head down to, www.getyourownlife.com
So what if aku ade banyak exes?.
So what if only 4 lasts long?.
So what if the rest left me too.
I have issues.
I dont need you guys to melebih.
Dont even bother to angkat buah pls.
Numbers arent everything,everytime i thought i could gave them a chance.
just that once.
But noooooo, i was the dumbo of the year.
had to listen to their empty promises and sweet-talkings.
I admit.
i was stupid.
and i still am.
Im done blabberin bout this,
i like the next part.
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RANDOM FACTS BOUT NADT. Da tau,diam je kay.
-I HATE FROGS.I dont even wanna see a pic of em.
-I think i have OCD,i need to wash my hands everytime or else i get rimas.HAHA.
-I love to sigh everynow and then just so my surrounding wont be quiet.
-If u notice,my hp is like my boyfriend.Always stuck to it every single second.
-I get lonely at times,thats why i tend talk to myself.HAHA.
-My daily routine?..Disturb my elder brother.HAHA.
-I want a netbook for my bday pls.=)
-Im superbly vain.(contradictin myself).
-I LOVE to pick a fight.
-I whine.
-I rebel.
-Sometimes i give up when it comes to guys.
-But all my friends,are guys.Countless.
-I love to hold my hp when i sleep.
-I would really love to kill all my exes except one,who is my close friend now.
-I eat alot.Thats why <3 called me monster.
-I drowned once.And yes,the depth of the pool is half of me.
-I love to bully YAN.He doesnt mind it..right yan.*starin at yan*
-I might have done a stupid thing or two in 2010 which im not proud of.
-I hate ite bishan.
-My stalkers are all lesbians or attached.Dont laugh cibais.
I cant think of anything just yet.
Bored.
Sleepy.
Rain is here.
Ape lagi....Zzzzz..
*I wanna watch the sunset.*
Labels: That Lady Of Yours.
This term,Fridays sucks..BIG TIME.
Friday, April 23, 2010
(If ever i see Barney outside,i'll dickslapped him.)
Drool bitch.
School's gonna end at 3pm.Only for today,others fridays?.5pm.
Fark u School.
What i did today?.
-Run around like a stupid fagg.
-Laugh at idiots chasing after one ball.(Im one of em).
-Had to bathe again cos my body was sweating,u could fill a swimmming pool.
-Looked at mirror atleast 10 times today,why?.Im a vain bitch.
-Smoke.Smoke.Smoke.i gotta cut down.
-Come back school for Principle of marketing(P.O.M),but...i ended up typin shits here.
-Drool.
-Text.
-Daydream.
-Swear people.
-Muke innocent.=).
-My odourless teacher caught me.Shit.Kay bye.
.........
.........
.........
.........
Im havin split migraines.Help.
My medicine?.Sleep.
Its Nadt we're talking abt.
HELLOOOOOOOOOO....P.O.M MENDAK LAHHHHH KAY..
<3
<3
Hello Meanie Monster,
I miss you.
Aint got any other G's..
Can i just focus on u?.
Now,stop talkin rubbish nadt.
Screw urself.Kay bye.
Bored.Sleepy.Kau.Bacen.Kay.Bye.
*Im tired of bumpin into u dickhead.*
Labels: Barney Sucks okay.
Obsessed.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
(Dear,were u like this when u drank that time?).HAHA.
Look,
(I think im fallin for u..hard.)
How ah?
How ah?.
Hmm...Nevermind that..im bored actually.And having a really bad tummyache.And i suck at typin blog now.I dont even remember what happened everyday.But i sure know i enjoyed it.And lets just say,the rest of the day,i cant be bothered with it.I dont give a freakin fcuk for it.What u say,What they say.I only listen to what i gotta say.Selfish,Yes.But look at urself first in the mirrror.Its a horror.
(Fcuk yourself Niggs).
Anyway,
I hate my class timetable.Ending sch at 5 almost everyday.Still,i cant afford to not come or miss some lessons,u should see my attendance last term.u would beg me on ur knees just to make me come to sch.Fcuk u sch.
And hey,
Im missin you.
U are unlike others.Its there any other word that can replace awesome?.Thats u.
School started,and i get to meet u less often.
Again,Screw u school.
Go fcuk a newspaper.
And,
im glad someone found someone new.
Im glad.really.Having a girl like that,its impossible to find.But pls dont be ur true self later on.It hurts ok.Im not suprise tho,ive seen it coming.Blame it on me,maybe.but i sure did what i could last time.And i know,i gave u the world.Guess u wanted the universe?.hahahaha.kay aku diam kay.Overall,Im happy for you.
Lets drool in this class suckers.Ok go.